Love What Is
It is what it is
And I can’t expect anything from you
And I can’t deny my feelings for you
I just have to love what is
Not expect what isn't
I have to appreciate who you are now
And our relationship in the present
I can’t force it to morph into anything that it isn’t
And I don’t even know if I want that
And it really doesn't seem like you want that
It's so utterly confusing
And I keep trying to figure it out
To figure you out
And I've come to one conclusion:
I just want to be wanted
And I want to be acknowledged
And I want to be invited
And for once I want someone to be madly in love with me
I want someone to see me
And I want you to know how I feel
How I’m trying to understand what’s staged and what’s real
And I just want to hold your hand
And I just want you to hold me
That’s all
Nothing else
No expectations
No rules or regulations
Just
I just want you to know
So maybe then, I can let go </3
Today I am grateful for:
- Opportunities
- Resources
- Intuition
- Cards
- The Law of Attraction
- Mental clarity
- New ideas
- Comfort
- Recognition
- Safety
- I am grateful for my home
- I am grateful for my car
- I am grateful for my friends
- I am grateful for money
- I am grateful for my cozy bed
- I am grateful for sleep
- I am grateful for baths
- I am grateful for hugs
- I am grateful for every single audience member
- I am grateful for my ancestors
- I am grateful for my spirit guides
- I am grateful for Yoga
- I am grateful for meditation
- I am grateful for my keyboard
- I am grateful for my mouse
- I am grateful for relaxation
- I am grateful for massages
- I am grateful for messages
- I am grateful for my new passport!
- I am grateful for the JET program
- I am grateful for epsom salts
- I am grateful for LUSH
- I am grateful for my long soft beautiful hair
- I am grateful for plans
- I am grateful for ease
- I am grateful for peace
- I am grateful for kindness
- I am grateful for fun and laughter and surprises and adventures
- I am grateful for my soft skin
- I am grateful for my health
- I am grateful for my perfect straight teeth
- I am grateful for my braces coming off
- I am grateful for all the love and joy and light and kindness around me
- I am grateful for wisdom
- I am grateful for the beautiful dog I had in my dreams
- I am grateful for the otters in my dreams
- I am grateful for the beautiful humans all around me
B: a, you can’t just say, “but does it blend” every time we make something
A: but - / DOES IT BLEND?
B: /does it blend?
A: Precisely
B: A, that’s a boiled egg you sprinkled paprika on.
A: correct
A Scene cut from "The Ancestor Play" to be written. . .
2: What’d I miss?
1: Nothing much, just the usual cycles and patterns
2: Aw man. Did she get the note I left?
1: She may or may not have driven straight passed it
2: But I put it in lights!
1: I know, I know / LIGHTS
2: /LIGHTS!
1: We can’t all be omnipresent Gods...
2: Well, did she at least get the dime I left her on the floor she swept?
1: oh yeah! She said, “that’s my grandma!”
2 sighs at her youthful appearance
2: I’ll take it
2 performs a self high five even though 1 is definately available. 3, having appeared unsuspectingly with tofu pad thai in a to go box:
3: What. Is. That?
1 and 2 unphased:
1&2: The result of past and present trauma.
3: Ah.
They all sigh together, sit, and watch. A moment.