The kind that you cook in a cabin by the lakes,
all bruised and battered,
on a pan that's slathered,
Delicious and wanted when cooked,
but currently finding myself in a recipe book,
A lumpy liquid being swirled by a larger hand,
This sugary mix lost in this twisted exotic land,
Desperately clawing at the edge of an endless bowl,
Feeling myself creating my own dark hole,
Being shoved backwards by a snowman shaped spatula,
Wanting to take shelter from all this sunny bullshit like count Dracula,
Wanting you to be direct but being unable to take direction,
Constantly expecting myself to be in a state of perfection
For what?
For who?
Why does it matter so much to you?
And I love what you do.
And I love who you are.
And its not your ambition that stretches too far.
So please, don't get out of your beautiful car,
Keep on trucking,
In fact, shoot for the goddamn stars,
And remember all of the you that you really are.
"Thank you,"
For all that you are
For all that you have been
For all that you mean and have meant to me
I was looking through some old poems and songs and watching myself fall in love and grow and blossom and I just am so grateful
Even if it ended in hurt
Even if I was left crying in the dirt
Even if you tried not to lead me on
Or you did and you knew you were doing wrong
I just -
Appreciate it.
All of it.
And everything that you do.
Because sometimes a crush is all that you need to get through.
A day, a week, a month, a year -
And I gotta admit loving you gave me so much more than holiday cheer
So I want to thank you
For every time I skipped through the rain
I want to thank you
For every time you kept me sane
I want to thank you
For every day I got to play with your hair
To touch you
To heal you
Even if I was completely unaware
I just want to thank you, for being there.
Today I am grateful for:
- Laughter
- New
- Adventures
- Blessings on blessings on blessings
- Heaters and air conditioners
- Cozy warm rooms and towels and laundry and showers and baths and lighting
- Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep
- Tohru and Kyo
- French fries
- That one day I will have someone to decorate a Christmas tree with
- That one day I will have someone sporatically kiss me on the cheek
- That one day I will have someone interrupt my day with their daily snuggles and cuddles and pure love
- The opportunity to love so many people and be loved in return
- Trust
- Surrender
- Divine guidance
- Divine timing
- Rest