Don't worry -
She is And she isn't okay but she has friends but she has hope but she has fire but she has spirit she'll be okay be will be okay she will
Because I knew it was over, but I couldn't not try.
And we are alone
But that’s the best part Because you are the only person who can ever fully understand all that you are going through, all that you have done to become who you are, all the work you have done and all the work you can do It’s all you
That’s a dangerous thing to be:
A woman who doesn’t know what she wants So what do you want?
Some people may wonder why I went
Even though I was tired and spent Even though we agreed to be through Even though I knew I’d never get time with you But I wrote out a list And I decided, it’s true: I could respect your wish And that’s when my stomach started to twist Because the pros outweighed the cons New ideas and visuals started to dawn On me What if I held the key? So how could I allow you to be locked inside of yourself and your thoughts You coulds and shoulds and forget me nots And then my calculations were through: The only con was not having you. And we all know that was already true, So, I thought… Why not, I got what I got And as I sat there on that bench - internally I fought I felt like a child who’d been caught, But I knew I had to stay And I knew I had to speak And even though others might say a female reaching out for a man is weak, I know I am brave I know I am strong I know following your heart is not wrong So I had to tell you my piece Because I knew if I didn’t, I’d never have peace And I sat there and waited for you like a beautiful brave bride And I watched all the couples holding each other with pride, And, to help myself stay grounded I sang, “Side by side” And I heard Angelica say, “You will never be satisfied,” And you took so much time, I already knew Your mind was made up Either way, we were through But you listened and nodded while I talked through our relation ship and my thoughts and I poked and I prodded And when I was finished, no one applauded, You said you were sorry You said you couldn’t be You said you weren’t the one, the one for me, You said you needed time, time which you did not have, You said this was so difficult because its what you wanted Because you wanted to be with me You wanted to fall apart And end up back in my arms But you are a good person But you are a strong man But you have the will power of a NBA champ And I wanted to call my mother Like the time I called crying to ask her to pick me up from camp because there were spiders there, Because there was fear, Because I wanted to be any place, any place but here. But I didn’t want to leave because I knew that meant you would disappear Into your work Into your career Ambition isn’t always something to admire, my dear And I tried not to cry And I tried not to hear How much you really wished you could be my cavalier Because it doesn’t make any sense No sense at all To run away from a leaf because you fear fall And I couldn’t stop the tears as soon as you said it Your kindness is what got me Your care I swear You handing me a handkerchief while you held me and stared And you walked with me arm and arm down the stairs And you just stood there and held me while I cried And you walked me back to my car Like the gentleman you are Going on about how you wished you were a better person How things just went too far And then One last time I tried not to cry Because, despite everything, you still kissed me goodbye
Hey,
I just wanted to say, It's alright You're okay, You don't have to look at me that way. Please, please, don't look at me that way. You'll grow on your own, and I'll grow my own way. Hey, hey, It's alright, I promise, I will be okay. And just like that it's over. What you don't know is that you:
And everything happened so fast it feels like the world's still blurry Still. I don't regret a moment. Why can't things end one at a time? Why does it all have to end at once? I'll miss you.
Because my face hurts -
Not from the braces that were tightened, Nor the cavities that were filled, but because - For the 3 hours I spent with you, I couldn't stop smiling. And I felt shy And I felt awkward And I wanted to run away And I wanted to hide Because I felt vulnerable And seen And looked at And listened to And attended to And I'm not used to that I'm not used to someone giving me their full attention Their special mention I'm not used to their entire world, being me, for more than a moment And I felt happy And I felt elated And I've never felt so many sensations from someone holding my hand And I felt innocent And I felt gracious And every touch is a thousand little glimmers of lightning - Pop rocks in my blood vessels Rice Krispies in my skin Sparklers in my stomach & Butterfries in my chest And my walls are as thin as pochato chips And my heart more open than a Pringle can And I'm doing the best I can To not be too much of a demand To not command To enjoy this land And I told you how when you held me it felt like you didn't want to let me go And you told me that you didn't And now I'm saying, "Then, don't."
I turned the page and suddenly, here's this grown @ss man
What How When Who? How did I What did I to get to you ? When will I Where will I y tú? Wowowowowowowowow Well, well, well, well, well m-hm, m-hm, m-hm hmmmmmmmm Creating our own version of heaven or hell - Can't imagine - Oh well - Suddenly - Sh!t. Oh hell. And I still have so much to tell - Where do I begin? When should I? How could I? Here, let us begin -
Do you understand how hard it is to leave you?
Each time? It's like there's this hand This force This vortex This web This cord This invisible string - In my heart In my chest And it's reaching out And it gets caught, on you, And it's like -- Music without a note of resolution, a country without a constitution, a chemist without a solution, hamilton without a revolution, a fully stocked warehouse without a plan of distribution, a fossil without evolution, a university without an institution, rules without execution, a courtroom without prosecution, an understudy rehearsal without substitution, a straight shot without dilution, and my lips can't reach a conclusion are you my new delusion? Let there be no confusion it's like a sentence without an end Pooh bear without a friend Today I may have referred to you as my - But, don't worry, it was to a stranger, I know, I know, I never asked you to be my avenger, just relax, there is no danger, They don't know And what you don't know Is I'm probably going to smile at you through the entire show And is it me, or do we glow? And how the hell could it be more obvious? And is it me, or is it us?
Shh don't tell
Oh hell Roses are red, Violets are blue, I kept the first rose you gave to me too. Dear Universe,
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About the Author:Amy Abrigo is an actor, director, writer, and much more currently living in her hometown of San Antonio, Texas. Archives
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