Today I am grateful for:
- Patience
- The opportunity to be better and do better
- The opportunity to grow
- New opportunities
- Kindness
- Communication
- The day ending
- Blankets
- Heaters
- Peace
- Silence
- Quiet
- Someday this will end
- Someday these feelings will pass
- Someday things will get easier
- Someday things will get better
- Someday
Today I Learned:
- It is a struggle for me to be wrong or do wrong and I would so much rather blame it on anything and anyone else and cry rather than admit I was wrong and that is okay because I'm not as perfect as I wish I was
- Sometimes you just have to swallow that shit
- Sometimes you just have to stop
- Sometimes you have to take a break
- Sometimes you need to eat
- Sometimes you need to pack more food
- Sometimes you need to walk away
- Sometimes you need space for yourself
- Sometimes you need to communicate how overwhelmed you feel before it starts to spill
- Telling me to calm down is a major trigger.
- My feelings are not someone else's responsibility.
- Sometimes you need to stop waiting for people to take care of you and take care of your damn self.
Mew
I’m trying to catch Pokémon that’s higher than level two,
But instead I’m lost in the grass and I keep catching you.
Gary telling me to hurry up and get through,
Professor Oak got me wishing I was more woke,
Trying to climb a tree but trying not to choke,
Can't seem to be un-broke,
Waiting for my time to croak,
Can this all be some terrible joke?
Is there really someone waiting for me through all this smoke?
Is there really hope?
Can I get off this rope?
I want to want someone to want someone and not just to cope,
I can feel myself falling down this slippery slope,
Would you say my face is still pale or a moderate taupe?
Look, I know I'll be loved
I know I'll be okay
But right now its so easy to take my own breath away
I do want to stay
And I do want to play
But sometimes its harder with each break of day
Sometimes it feels like nothings going my way
Sometimes I just want to walk, run, or swim away
But into the sunset?
Into the unknown?
Where do I go when I refuse to grow?
How do I change and just say no?
How do I move fast when my setting is slow?
I'm trying to see you, I'm trying to float,
but instead I'm still drowning inside of my own moat,
would you be my field day, would you bring me my coat?
Would you celebrate my silliest billiest jokes?
Could I be the masterpiece stuck in my own throat?
Just because you're doing great doesn't mean you should gloat -
Feeling like an ugly sweater lost at the bottom of a tote
An unwanted goat
A painted fur coat
A -
No -
Hold up -
Don't -
Let's stay positive
Redirect our prerogative
Because even if we've been blind doesn't mean we don't still have time
And sometimes you need to feel these feelings so one day you can feel sublime
And sometimes you have to scream even though you're a mime
Because we're all human
Because we all fail
Because we can't always be doing well
Because you still glimmer
Because you still shine
Because someday someone will be glad to say, "you're mine,"
Because you are fine
Because you are safe
Because you have so many things to thank your saving grace
These thoughts may fall in
These thoughts may standby
But its you who has the power to let yourself cry
To let yourself be
To let yourself drown
But also to get up and take over this town
To wake up and shake up and stand on your feet
And if you're a goat, I want to hear your motha bleepin' bleat
Manifestations
- I want and expect to be happy
- I want and expect to feel joy
- I want and expect to laugh
- I want and expect hugs
- I want and expect peace
- I want and expect ease
- I am relaxed
- I am calmed
- I am chill
- I am kind
- I am a good person
- I am professional
- I am okay
- I am safe
- I am well
- I am a good communicator
- I ask for what I need
- I communicate
- If I want something, I communicate that
- If I don't want something, I communicate that
- I am alive
- I am here
- I am present
- I am happy
- I am safe
- I am loved
- I am loveable
- I am love
- I am light
- I shine
- I am relaxed
- I understand
- I know
- I know where I want to go and what I want to do and I go for it
- I know what I want
- I know what to do
- I know what to say
- I know
- I am capable
- I am worthy
- I am enough
- I am confident
- I am secure
- I am allowed
Why do I want you?