Today I am grateful for:
- Maddox, a child audience member who ran up to me as I was leaving to clock out of my shift, who had to stop me to tell me how awesome I was and how hilarious the show was and how much he loved my pre-show of Sea Lions Tonite
- Meeting new people and learning their life stories
- Having a wonderful pre-show where I had so much fun and really really loved every moment I was onstage - especially when I almost fell into the moat sliding onstage for "Old Time Rock and Roll," and I had to contortion my body all kinds a ways to prevent me from going in the water - or the beginning of the show when I purposely hunted down one kid who ran away from me so he wouldn't get wet even though he was in the front row of the splash zone and a guy in the audience offered me some of his chili cheese fries and the audience started to chant my name over Starr yelling at me, "Amy! Amy! Amy!" And a kid told me "Just buy new headphones" after mine got 'destroyed' onstage.
- My ability to recognize that my life is so much more than getting the validation or recognition or love from one human
- Cat naps and yoga in the shade
- Free groceries
- Fresh mangos
- Fruit cups
- Imperfect foods
- This moment
- Right here
- Right now
- My beautiful home
- My powerful computer
- My beautiful body
- All the nutritious foods in my fridge and pantry and belly
- My friends
- Birthday parties
- Wish Lists
- Harry Potter marathons
- My ability to pick up shifts, grow up, and take responsibility for my actions
- The rain
- The thunder
- The lightening
- Opportunities for bonding
- My ability to admit to my mistakes
- Unexpected hugs
- Watching a sea lion kiss happen onstage as the audience goes "AWWWW"
- Learning about other folks' special skills
- Remembering that people are so much more than what you see
- Getting to know someone's super secret or not so secret side hustle
- New information
- New opportunities
- Raises
- Bonuses
- Prizes
- Surprises
- Peace
- Ease
- Joy
- Love
- Meal prep
- Knowing one day someone will wrap their arms around my waist from behind as I wash dishes in the sink and tell me they love me and kiss me all over my face and they will tell me good morning and goodnight and I hope I appreciate every single moment.
Dream:
- Hats -
- "a plan to realize your expectations. Dreaming with a hat is quite strange because it refers to protection and a feeling of security. Those who dream of hats are those who need shelter. It also represents elegance and reflects your mood."
- "The hat symbolizes the stage of transition and many changes on the personality side. It allows you to carry out new projects that are in line with plans. If you are at work, you might face a small problem because of a misunderstanding. But your ability supports you to react and resolve it."
- "Dream of wearing a hat also means you will achieve all your goals. It shows that you can see life from another perspective. Many good things will come for your future, and thus, you will attain the calm that you are looking for."
- Mall - "your search for acceptable roles, choices, beliefs, and ideas. ... Being in mall symbolizes decisions, or preferences that make you who you are. A mall represents social settings, or social development where you are exploring options, or decisions about what you want or who you will become."
- Traffic jam - "It means your enemies want to slow down your progress. They want to stop you from going forward. Rise up in the midnight and declare war against enemies wanting to slow down your progress and command the traffic to clear before you!"
Scene
Husband: Honey . . . You okay?
*Woman, in between sobs, laughing*
Woman: He has your eyes. He’s not supposed to have your eyes. But he does. He has your eyes.
This Moment: A Poem
This day
This feeling
This boy
My life is so much more
My life is so much
My life is so
My life is
My life
My
I want so much more for my life
Than this day
Than this feeling
Than this boy
I want so much more for me
Than this
Moment
I deserve
I have worked
I work
I will
I do
I can
I will
I
You get the boy and then what?
What would giving him your number do?
What would confessing do?
It wouldn’t make anything change.
So relax
So rest
So enjoy the journey
So take your time
So breathe
So do you
Because that’s all you can do
Be with yourself
Love yourself
Forgive yourself
Stop obsessing
Stop torturing yourself
Live for you
And that might be new,
But you can do it, you can do it too
Set the example
Shine on
Do what you want
Live your dream
What’s your dream?
You'll soon find out
For now, you are doing the best you can
You are making a wonderful plan
You are building the budget, building the skills
You are applying
You are relying
But even then
Then what
Will It be enough
Is it what I want?
I don’t know
I think so
All I know is it is something I have
Something I have as a goal
And I am doing the best I can
So I may not know what tomorrow brings
But today brought today and what a miracle that was <3