Questions
- Do leaves look like feathers or do feathers look like leaves?
- Is there anything sexier than a ripe avocado?
- How does lightning exist without thunder?
- Where can ya gurl get one large warm ooey gooey vegan chocolate chip cookie in San Antonio?
- Can you learn something without the pain of the experience?
- How do you redirect when self sabotage is afoot?
- What do you do for fun?
- What do you do for comfort?
Today I am grateful for:
- Animal cuddles and playtime and how they soothe my soul
- The ability to return purchases
- I saw a plush Hedwig at build-a-bear and I safely walked away
- I saw a Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone film poster T-shirt and sweatshirt at H&M and safely walked away
- I returned all the unnecessary purchases with ease
- I LEFT Plato’s closet with nothing! Ha!
- The kindness and patience of cashiers
- Soft washed t-shirts
- Themed things
- Pumpkin spice
- Trotter's Cafe
- Sanderson, TX
- Cupples Road
- Sweet dreams
Xmas Sweater
Would you pray for winter weather?
If they said I was a dove,
Would you cover me in feathers?
If we're both lose wires,
Do you think we’d be stronger together?
Amy, what's the deal with the feathers?
My mom says its our Native roots. Or angel feathers.
Agnostics say its birds. Lots and lots of birds. Ya bound to see feathers.
I say they called me "Bird" in high school because I was tall, white-passing, and played basketball with jersey number 33.
Either way, birds mean something to me especially doves and cardinals. So, as a little sign of grattitude to the universe and a little out of curiosity, I've started to take a picture every time I see a feather and I take it as a sign that I am doing the right thing, I am on the right path, I am surrounded by angels, and I am choosing the right chooses.
I usually see one when I begin to doubt -
Am I making the right choice?
Am I on the right path?
Am I enough?
Is it okay that I'm 29 years old and doing X or living Y or or or
And the answer is always, "Yes, please calm the f- down, you're stressing yourself out for no reason other than to feel stress because that is what you're used to - please stop. Please enjoy your life. Life was meant to be enjoyed, you know?"
So. Feathers. Enjoy!
Xoxo
Trying to fill an unfillable cup
A porous sponge
A well that isn't really a well, but the sea
Trying to catch shadows
Trying to feel smell
Trying to taste sound
Trying to hold onto what isn't yours
Trying but failing not to make a sound
Remembering I have a right to exist
Remembering I chose my path
Remembering its okay to look at myself and laugh
Every day doesn't need to be a workshop in self-improvement,
But every day is filled with things I chose to do -
So what do I chose?
What do I value?
What do I want to do?
How do I bring joy into my life?
How do I stop creating my own strife?
I had a dream
I had another dream that my childhood dog who has long since past was trying to comfort me, but she was hurting because she was staying here and not moving on. When I remembered this dream, I cried and told her to move on, that it was okay, that she could go, that I would be alright, that one day I would get another dog, but it could not be today. That I love her, and I miss her, and I appreciate her so much for always watching over me. I hope she is safe. I hope she is happy. I hope she feels no more pain.