Isn't it funny?
Isn't it funny how when I don't try it does?
Isn't it funny how the universe works?
Isn't it funny how we actually have no clue what the heck is going on 98% of the time?
Isn't it funny how things are always working out for me?
Isn't it funny how it's actually okay?
Isn't it funny how I always have everything I need and more?
Isn't it funny how I already have all the resources I need?
Isn't it funny how I'm surviving?
Isn't it funny how I'm thriving?
Isn't it funny how when I stop creating problems for myself that I can really just enjoy my life?
Today I learned:
- There are legal limits on the number of pets (cats and dogs) a human can own in the city of San Antonio? (It's 8 animals total with no more than 8 cats and no more than 5 dogs in that mix fyi.)
- Nutmeg tastes like organic mosquito repellant. Or maybe it's the other way around?
- Expiration dates matter.
- Everyone really is doing the best they can do. Even if it's not what you to perceive that to be. We're all out here trying.
- Sometimes people already love you. In the ways they only know how. And sometimes you have to love them for that.
- I am more comfortable with people who don't want to see me than people who do. It is uncomfortable for me to be in relation to someone who actually wants to spend time with me, actually talks to me, and actually responds to me . . . because it's not something I'm used to. Ain't that damn sad? Here's the bright side: I'm recognizing it and working on it! Go me!
- It's so much easier to be a victim and blame others for the places we put ourselves in. Other people might be responsible for where we are, but we are responsible if we stay there.
- It is important for me to have a Christmas decorating budget.
- I often feel a need to prove myself to others even when there is nothing to 'prove' and all I have to 'do' is be.
- It's okay to take your own damn self out.
- It's okay to take time for yourself.
- It's okay to take care of your needs.
- It's okay to stop.
- Food and shopping do not replace human comfort, connection, and socialization. No matter how hard you try.
- No one is going to say, "TOO MANY PUMPKINS!"
- There is something magical about throw pillows and plush blankets and themed kitchen towels and a wearable Hedwig blanket and a chocolate frog throw pillow and a tiny chibi plush Gryffindor lion and Ravenclaw raven.
- It is okay to be a little disappointed with the world from time to time.
- It is okay to be a little kinder to yourself.
- It is okay that I chose not to be in Halloween night product.
- I have serious FOMO. 24/7. 365. It's like I used to be a God because I want to be omnipresent.
Today I am grateful for:
- The new Costco
- The man who didn't work at HEB, but tried to help me anyway
- All the leos I be seein' gleamin'
- Communication
- Miracles
- Magic
- Trying
- Making others smile and laugh
- Recognizing and working on my addictions
- Forgiving myself
- Waking up saying, "Watch his spirit. Watch his spirit, God." with zero context.
- Trusting my intuition
- Trusting if it is not working, I cannot force it, and maybe it is not meant to be - for now!
- Butterflies
- Baths
- Face scrubs
- Bills that can be frozen
- Friends that want to be there
- Leaning into the awkward
- SA Orthodontics told me:
- I am done with wearing the extra rubber bands on my braces! WOOHOO!
- My braces are way ahead of schedule! I do believe in miracles - I do, I do!
- The miracle of grapes and honey crisp apples being on sale SIMULTANEOUSLY! What is this magic?
Affirmations
- I am safe
- I am secure
- I am enough
- I am more than enough
- I am loved
- I am loveable
- I communicate
- I communicate and express my feelings, wants, needs, and desires
- I know what I want
- If I want something, I communicate that
- If I don't want something, I communicate that
- I am stable
- I am balanced
- I am beautiful
- I am smart
- I am wise
- I accept compliments
- I receive feedback well
- I take notes well
- I receive criticism well
- I believe in miracles
- I believe in magic
- I trust in myself
- I trust myself
- I trust my intuition
- I trust divine guidance
- I trust the universe
- I trust divine timing
- I trust
- I trust
- I trust
- I surrender
- I surrender the need to control every detail of my life
- I surrender the need for worry
- I surrender the need for pain
- I surrender the need for hurry
- I surrender the need for fear
- It is okay to feel things
- It is okay to be scared
- It is okay to try
- It is okay to fail
- It is okay to be disappointed
- I love my life
- I am so lucky
- Every day I feel so grateful for all that I have
- I am grateful
- I am grattitude
- I am sunshine
- I am life
- I am capable
- I am enough
- I am more than enough
- I always have more than enough
- I always have all that I need and more
- I am safe
- I am comfortable in my body
- I am comfortable making connections with others
- I make space and time for people who make space and time for me
- I believe
- Thank you, thank you, thank you