Today I am grateful for:
- Play
- Improv
- Familiar songs and places and faces
- Soft pretzels
- Companionship
- Folks
- Friends
- Loved Ones
- New beginning
- Adventures
- Trying
- All the folks who dress up to come to the park
- The pirate and princesses I called out today
- Crayons
- Not having to do anything
- Recognizing my own guilt, my own mistakes, and apologizing to those I hurt and was unkind to even if only in my mind
- Access to a printer and a scanner and a computer and and and all the blessings the universe has given me seen and unseen spared and unspared
- Creating my own path
- Making my self laugh
- Yoga mats and bubble baths
Could I be your guide?
Hold your compass and be by your side?
Navigate the course as we prance outside
If I showed up would you be satisfied?
If I’m cold would you hold me, or would you hold your pride?
If I had a secret, would you let me come near?
Could I lean on your shoulder and whisper it in your ear?
If you had gummy worms, would you let me share?
What is your favorite color?
Do you have a brother?
What’s your long lost hobby?
Do you secretly love the scent of a hotel lobby?
If it rained all day would you ask me to stay?
Would we build a blanket fort and learn how to play?
What are you trying to hide?
Is there another you deep inside?
Is there something you’re still trying to find?
How do I unlock the magical you inside?
How do I keep up with your gallant stride?
Is there time for me in the peak of your tide?
Do you know where we’d go if we went for a ride?
Tell me you want me
And I’ll say I tried.
Do you understand all the cards I am dealing?
Why aren't your eyes more revealing?
If you’re the princess and I’m the frog, why won’t the writers fix our dialogue?
Waiting for someone to find me,
Stuck under this log-
Trying to breathe you in through the fog-
Can you really love someone this long?
Is it possible to heal in the words of a song?
If you go, will you string me a long?
If you are the mango,
Then I’ll be the Chile
Spice up your sweetness with all that I’m feeling-
Tell me, how did your arms become instruments of healing?
If you’re the game and my heart is stealing,
Can you check the box for “most-likely-to-fall-in?”
I don’t know what I’m healing
But I’m thanking you for revealing
All these old wounds that I’m feeling
Start to shiver
Start to shout
Start to wonder what it’s all about
Moving on to better days
If I can only get out of this haze
How did you get so attractive?
How do I get more of that?
How did I get more of that?
Perhaps it was when you grabbed my hand again
Perhaps it was when you asked me to dance
Perhaps it was when you got scared and covered your eyes
Or when we we'd hide
Maybe it was the first time I saw you smile
Or the last time I saw you laugh
Or when I recognized you without a photograph
Perhaps it was when I finally saw all of you
Perhaps it was when you held me and didn’t have to
Perhaps it was when you let me hold on for a moment too long
Perhaps it was when you let me feign sleep so I didn’t have to talk to anyone
Perhaps it was then
Perhaps it is now
Perhaps it was when you leaned in close
Perhaps it was when I finally soaked you in
When I said I'd wait forever for us to begin
Perhaps it the fifth time I let you in
Or when you would tease me
Or when you'd only say my name
Or when you'd sing
Or when you recognized my pain
Or when you saw my self-disdain
Or when you were so god damn kind
So god damn nice
So god damn generous with your time and your smile and your eyes
To stop all this chit chat and show you my blush
To tell you that on you I have a crush
That I was too scared
That about you I cared
That I don’t want to hurt you
That I don’t want to fall through
That I’m still learning how to be me around you
That I want to see you
But I don’t want to bleed you
I want to add
Don’t wanna drive you mad
Want to appreciate all the things we have and haven’t had
I wanna see you
I wanna free you
I wonder which part of me is the real you
So if you want to
Will you make some of my dreams come true?
Then
Fallen into the darkest part of the river?
Crushed your own self into a sliver?
Sang your heart out to, "Signed, Sealed, Delivered?"
I fear if you hold me I'll quiver
I fear if I hold you, you'll shiver
I fear so much that I can't deliver
Can you hear me getting closer?
Can you see me running farther?
Is there some way to try again
In this time I can't win
If you and me is ten
Can I talk to you then?
A Prayer For All Of Us
For all the boys and the girls
For all of those in between
For anyone who knows their queen
May we be loved
May we all find what we are looking for and more
May we find joy and peace and hugs and open doors
And the comfort of a warm bowl of soup and tea and oatmeal or a hug or a blanket or a palm in the folds of your back
May we rest in ease
May we have all the resources we need and more
May we enjoy all those we adore
May we celebrate
May we rest
May we always hope for the best
May we recover without guilt or shame or the need for productivity
May we sink into our souls and re-emerge transformed
May we all experience magic and miracles and and light all around us every day and night
May we discover new adventures and have opportunities to play
May we put on our rose colored glasses today
You know what -
May our eyes be rose colored glasses
May we be the rose and the sun
May we shine brighter than the whitest snow
May we bring warmth to those we do and do not know
May we guide and allow ourselves to be guided
May we take at least one single deep breath
May we dip one toe into the ocean
May we all see the birds and the trees and feel every single emotion
May we feel the wind in our hair and smell the leaves and hear the rustling of grass and taste cinnamon and honey and ice cream on a summer day
May we all be emptied of fear and filled with hope
May we all let go of our restlessness and trust
May we always feel and know we are enough
Because it fills something
Some part of me
Because other parts can't be filled