And all I want is sweatpants
And oversized is two sizes too small
And I can't even get the courage up to go to the mall
And when I do it's too much
It's all sweaters and coats that I want
But it's too damn hot
And everything is too fucking expensive and cold and hot and tight and dreary and dark and black and too big and too small and too rough and too soft and too thick and too thin
And all I want to wear is black
And all I want to feel is darkness
And all I want to be is gone
And I want to just solve it all
Somehow I want X shirt or Y skirt or this or that to somehow make everything fine
To somehow take 20lbs off my body
To somehow make me not want cake
And to somehow keep me from staying awake
If I could I would
If I could I should
If I would I could
If I should I could
And then I would
And then
But clothes don't solve this
I mean
Yes
I mean
No
Now is not the time