I tried the Chicken brautwurst at Bierfest and listened to West Coast Prost in the Bier Garten. I tried Spanky's fries for the first time (why has it taken me a year - don't ask - just be grateful that I finally allowed myself to do it). I tried a mango with chile paleta and almost lost my mouth to the fire inside of it - but I LOVED IT. Would I do it again? No. No I would not. But I LOVED IT.
I did two run throughs and a read through of Clyde and Seamore's Countdown to Christmas better than I ever have before - feeling more comfortable than ever on that stage and so excited to get even better!
I visited the new Costco by my house and got too close to buying a $20 giant squishmallow baby yoda.
I got all dressed up and went on a Target run with my best friend to celebrate her new car.
I got a free sub from Jersey Mike's thanks to one of my big bosses.
I saw people I care so deeply about in ALL the shows and all the things from Countdown to Halloween to Parade to Monster Stomp to Pathway haunts to shmexy bars.
I got to test out my first cosplay ever as Rey, and I'll get to wear it again to Ambassador's night this Thursday at SeaWorld.
I fed some sea lions some fish with some pirates.
I had my last diving/swim lesson at Blacktip Swim School.
I completed internal auditions for Christmas for SeaWorld and had so much fun and met so many new people and saw so many people I love it brought me so much joy.
I watched new (to me) episodes of IT Crowd, I returned all the things, I bought new all black clothes and shoes for a potential gig I may have coming up (more details to be announced pending).
I had lunch with my godmother at one of our favorites, Jason's Deli.
I volunteered at SA Humane Society, I shipt-ed, I dash-ed, I blogged like crazy, I wrote like crazy, I recorded like crazy, and still I feel the words pouring out of me and I am so grateful.
I wrote new rhymes for the sea lion show, I had my braces changed and was told they are way ahead of schedules so I no longer have to wear my rubber bands and I could get them off a lot sooner than expected (no idea when but tbd).
So much good. So many new adventures. So much fun. And love. And hugs. And kindness. And creativity. And admiration. And I am so grateful. Thank you, thank you, thank you, for such a beautiful week. What a gift. What a delight.
And this is a whole new week filled with even more adventures! And maybe I'll get back to Alamo Drafthouse soon. And maybe I'll go visit Six Flags friends next week. And maybe I'll get to work on a show of my dreams. Who knows what tomorrow will bring. All I know is that the universe brought me today and I am so grateful. For all the people. For all the places. For all the things. What a gift. What a delight. Thank you, thank you, thank you. There is so much love and abundance out there. So much to give. So much to receive. My heart is so full.
Where
Then I’m Santino Fontana,
More delicious than breakfast tacos at Taco Cabana,
More surprising than walking in on Santa –
Tell me baby, do you wanna Fanta-
-size about me, won’t you tell me or can’t ya?
If you’re a mermaid,
Then I’m the ocean,
Promising you all my love and devotion,
Dancing to our own locomotion,
Grease on my skin like chamomile lotion -
Sometimes I feel like I understand you more than I do my own emotions -
If you’re the freckle,
Then I’m the hair,
Cuddling you close like a teddy bear,
You are my elevator, I don’t need the stairs,
You got me changing colors like a bear that cares,
Baby, tell me is it hard not to stare,
When I’m running my fingers through my golden hair?
Feelin’ fresh as a pair of Nike Airs-
If I was the truth, would you be my dare?
If I was a Lunchable, would you wanna share?
If I was a turtle, would you be my hare?
If I’m the rainbow, could you be my air?
If I held your hand would you even care?
If you’re the circle, can I be your square?
If I was a steak, would you call me rare?
I’m no Outback, but I would meet you there.
If I need a throne, would you be my chair?
If I’m the altar, would you whisper a prayer?
If I was your lady, would you treat me fair?
Would you tell me there is no one else that could compare?
If I said I wasn’t worthy, would you say, “au contraire”?
If you’re the dragon, can I be your lair?
If I was a town, would you be my mayor?
If you’re all around me, please tell me where?
Today I am grateful for:
- Progress
- Victory
- Practice makes practice
- Challenges
- Proof
- Evidence
- Exposure-therapy
- Sunscreen
- Runner's high
- The fact that it's really okay
- Costco and their giant boxes of grapes
- "Every love song you hear today is for you"
- Self-discipline
- Asking for what I want and need
- Expressing my feelings
- Expressing my love
- Looking at the stars
- Looking at the sky
- Cat naps and stretches on the bleachers
- Running through a show I haven't done in a year . . . thrice!
- Writing rhymes at the drop of a dime
- Saying no, letting go, letting in, opening my heart, letting myself exist
- Letting myself feel
- Letting myself heal
- Permitting myself to live in what's real
- Thinking about the ideal
- Fantasizing with skill
- Christmas lights and themed foods
- People in jolly moods
- Pushing through and hitting pause
- Kindness
- Generosity
- Enjoying the view
- Taking care of me
- Setting boundaries
- Getting sleep
- And exercise
- And food
- And yoga
- And meditating
- And not hesitating to speak the truth, to follow my instincts, to do what I do
- To over communicate
- To expect nothing and appreciate everything
- To set intentions
- To find peace
- To create joy and fun and new adventures
- I am capable
- I am enough
- I am more than enough
- I am allowed to exist
- I am allowed to express my feelings, emotions, love, kindness, and words
- I am allowed
- I am allowed
- I am allowed
- I surrender
- I trust
- I believe
- I believe in miracles
- I believe in magic
- I believe in myself
- I believe in the universe
- I trust myself
- I trust in myself
- I trust the universe
- I trust divine guidance
- I trust divine timing
- I trust that all that I seek is already on its way to me now for my highest good and the highest good of others. Thank you, thank you, thank you!
- I wake up feeling rested, restored, refreshed, energized, and ready to start the day singing and smiling!
Lunch
What's for lunch, lunch, lunch?
If I turned you into oats, would you be a honey bunch bunch bunch?
If you're Honey bunches, then I'm packed in lunches -
If you picked an outing, would it be fancy brunches?
If you're chips ahoy, then I'm Oreo
Keep wanting to hold you, but I gotta let go
My heart saying yes, but my tongue saying no
Cancel, cancel, cancel
Please cancel this flow
I'm not in pain
No longer insane
But if you asked me I'm afraid I'd go there and back again
But there's no need to be ashamed
No one else to blame
Here I am, standing in my own lane
Relaxing and chilling with something on the brain
And it's okay that you don't feel the same
It's okay that we're not in the same game
I'm here anyway
Not going away
So thank you for being kind
Thank you for being sweet
I appreciate you for being you
And for not treating me differently for all the stuff I said and didn't say to you
Thank you for not being rude
Thank you for being you
Best wishes to you in all that you do
May you be happy
May your love be true
And someday, when I'm ready for you -
May we find friendship in all of this blue