When there was no crime
I wish we could go back and erase this pain,
But then would it just happen again?
And maybe you needed that lesson
And maybe I did too.
And maybe someday we'll be more than confused
And leave each other feeling something other than used
And just because I want you doesn't mean we're not bruised.
I guess I thought I could wash these feelings away,
but your voice has my heart coming out to play,
And I'm not trying to get carried away
I just want to be held
And I thought that would be okay
But it's looking like I've got to walk away
There is no one more call away
of being alone
of being unloveable
untouchable
I guess I want love without the responsibility
I guess I want beauty without the insecurity
I guess I want more from my community
I guess I wished
I guess I hoped
And sometimes my positivity leaves me at the butt end of the joke
I guess I didn't expect
I guess I'll need to protect
I just thought
It could have been so easy
Words
We could have just used our words
Why couldn't we just use our words?
So close I could feel it
So close I could taste it
So close
We were so close
We could be close
Why won't this door close?
Why do I want to be close?
Why did you have to hold me so close?
I never knew I could break
I never knew something could keep me lying awake
I never knew I'd cry so much and cry out in pain
I never knew I'd beg the angels to shut my eyes
To hide me from the truth and the lies
I never knew I'd ask them to make me fall asleep
To take these thoughts away
To beg for break of day
I never thought something could have so much power over me
I thought I was so strong
And I am
There's gotta be more to this plan
I see you on a daily basis
Feeling you is my oasis
You hold my face
You kiss me all over the place
You surround me with your arms
You win me with your charms
I don't have to set any alarms
You'll take me to a Christmas tree farm,
You'll let me melt into you,
You'll hold me when I'm feeling blue
You'll play with my hair
You'll show me you care
You'll give me massages
You'll hold open doors
You'll say your mine and you'll say I'm yours
You'll text me back and you'll call me too
You'll think of me often and never tell me to shoo
You'll sing and dance with me, whenever I do
You'll have financial freedom
You'll own your own house
You'll be emotionally mature and responsible for your actions
You'll bewilder me with your chemical attraction
You'll be fun and creative and you'll like arts and crafts
You'll help me cut out snowflakes and you'll always make me laugh
You'll join me at the sunset and keep me awake
And on my birthday, you'll make me a cake
You'll take me for adventures to lakes, forests, beaches, and trails
And someday we'll ride the European rails
You'll take away the poison, you'll take away the pain
You'll always help me feel entertained
You'll be okay just being held & you'll dance in the rain
Affirmations
Meditations
I will workout and do yoga
I will write as I wish
I will swim as excellent as a fish
I will spend time with family and friends
I will teach and serve and train and make the world a better and brighter place to live in every single day
I will create and perform and constantly learn
And I will hold you
And you will hold me too