existing
being
themselves
for themselves
just
themselves
and I’m reminded that I’m not the only one living
My own story
And today
I get to be a side character in yours
a flash back episode
the beloved golden brown haired girl with bangs that everyone dresses like now
with her white platform converse that prove she’s no longer afraid of her own power
her own sight
her own height
It was a pleasure to see you
A pleasure to be seen
Fascinating living in these in-betweens
these transition periods
these times in our lives where we suddenly realize
we’re not alone
there’s got to be someone on the other end of that phone
calling
calling
“Is anybody home?”
Did you see what I saw?
It was a pleasure to observe you
to watch you, after all
I hope that’s not creepy
God, that sounds …
weird
but it was like suddenly a new character on tv brilliantly appeared.
out of the static of my reality
a sudden abnormality
a cataclysmic casualty
of boredom
in my peace
in my ease
I could clearly see
sit back and see
you
there
was it obvious?
did I stare?
Were you even aware?
I bet you didn’t even notice
I bet you didn't even care
Did you even see all the time put into my hair?
What I wear?
Well, what I wore,
Did you already put up a door?
Or a fence?
Is there a way to cross a bridge if it’s made up from sense -
memories that you’ve tried to kill?
Or are you merely trying to erase your trauma by seeking a thrill?
Fascinating creatures, we humans are -
Is that why you didn’t walk me to my car?
Why you won't let me get too far?
Why won’t you let me see who you truly are?
I believe in food
B: People LOVE Frankenstein!
A: I know, I know, but I was hoping to be loved more like...Dracula.
B: I'll see what I can do...
I believe in dance
I'm so grateful to Jan for believing in me as a dancer and a choreographer. And I'm so grateful I got to simultaneously be in her dance for musical theatre and tap class. I had never tap danced before. Ever. And here I am tappin' away. Jan is pictured above in the last row of photos in the very last photo. Jan was also my dance teacher at Concordia University when I first attended as a student. Now, as an alumni and professor, it was surreal and such a gift to be in her class. She took my dancing to a new level, and my ability to pick up choreographer is the best it's ever been. No, I'm not perfect. No, I haven't been dancing since I was 3, like some other girls. No, I don't have 15 years of tap or ballet. But I have me. And I have this beautiful experience. Watching myself and so many others grow and create and share the incredible art of dance with many audience members who were moved beyond their wildest dreams. What a gift.
Thank you. #JustJance