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Happy Mother's Day, Mommas
Nana
There is no reason.
No reason we should have ever met.
No reason I should be staying at your house.
No reason I should be so cared for and so supported and so loved by you.
We are not blood
We are not childhood friends
We are not sisters from a misters
But I'll tell you what we are:
We are strong
We are brave
We are courageous
We are loving
We are inspirations
We are funny as hell
We are fiercely independent
And fiercely codependent
We are smart asses
We love deeply and care whole-heartedly
We have our darkness, but we always shine our light
We have a relationship that never should have existed, and yet, here we are
God has brought us into each other's life for a reason
You and your family have been more of a family to me than I could ever have asked for
I feel so lucky
I feel so blessed
I am so grateful to have you in my life
You are wisdom beyond belief
You teach me so much every day
You show me how to be kind,
How to be patient,
How to smile and shine,
How to make others smile and feel seen,
How to listen deeply and care lovingly,
You are a complex and beautiful human,
You do so much and feel so much for others around you
You deal with so many things that no one has a clue about
You listen
You speak
You keep quiet
You are a peace maker
You are a mediator
You are not perfect, but no one is
You are trying, and that is enough
You are fiercely intelligent and creative and always seeking innovation and positive change -
For a soon to be 70 year experienced rockstar,
You are one of the only people I know who is constantly researching the latest gadgets and gizmos -
You have motion sensor sinks and smart outlets and remote control ceiling fans and mini robots living in your house and a trash can that is so fancy you don't have to touch it to use it.
You take the time to teach your grandson how to peel an orange
You take the time to watch your other grandsons' games
You take the time to go to my shows whether they are good, bad, or indifferent -
Even if they are weird spooky psychological thrillers that end with me covered in blood screaming and crying and crawling on the floor
You are one of my biggest fans
Because you care
Because you can
Because you want to be there
Because you understand
Because you know
Because you constantly learn and grow and share that knowledge with others
Because, while we don't always know how to love and support each other, we try our darnedest,
And your love is clear
Your passion is clear
Your kindness is clear
Your effort is present
Thank you
Thank you for all that you are and all that you will be
Thank you for helping me be more financially free
Thank you for everything you do for me
Seen and unseen
Known and unknown
We can't be everything
We can't see everything
We can't protect everyone from all the terrible things in the world,
But I am so grateful for your effort.
Thank you for your prayers.
Thank you for your wishes.
Thank you for your "be safes" that I rejected so many times because I saw them as criticisms instead of blessings.
Thank you for trying.
Thank you for caring.
Thank you.
I love you so much, Nana, and I am so grateful for you.
Happy Mother's Day.
Momma
Through darkness and light,
Through dreams and delights,
Through fears and flights,
You have always been there,
In spirit or in person.
You have taught me to love and how not to love.
You have shown me strength,
bravery,
creativity,
wisdom,
and capability beyond anything I could imagine.
As I turn 30 this year,
I reach the age at which you birthed me,
and I see all that I could not see then:
all your fears,
all your hopes,
all your love,
all your dreams,
and all your wishes.
Every day is a journey and no one is perfect,
but I am so glad that our relationship has grown into what it is today,
and I am so happy to be close in proximity to you during this time.
I thank you for your constant support and for teaching me:
It is okay to cry,
It is okay to love,
It is okay to be vulnerable,
It is okay to make mistakes,
And, above all,
Thank you for giving me the safe space to speak my mind,
To raise my voice,
And to share my creativity with the world -
Whether it was letting me borrow your skirt,
So I could use it as a dress at age 10 to put on my personal in-home lip-syncing concert, Or holding me as I cried and dealt with loss and fear and what felt like endless pain,
Thank you for all the ways you love and support me,
Seen and unseen.
Thank you.
Thank you for all that you are,
Thank you for all that you have been,
And thank you for all you are yet to be.
I love you so much, Momma.
Happy Mother's Day.
I am grateful for:
Themed Parties
My inner child and all the joy and support she brings me
Messages from Spirit
This new found ability to see myself
My entire self
My ferocity
My fierceness
My delicious capabilities
Opportunities to shine
The fact that somewhere there is another photo of me under these arches around age 4
New Adventures
More poems
R2
Because he made it sound like the fight that it was
The battle that it was
The struggle that it is
Because he made it sound like I consented to "Round 1"
Because he never asked the first time, so why would he ask now?
Because how fucked up are you that you can't tell that I am dying? And you are killing me? Can you not see the blood? Can you not see the tears? Can you not feel me trying to pry you off me? Can you not see me trying? Can you not hear me? Can you not feel me? Can you just please - not. Please. No.