Today I am grateful for:
- Days off
- Parties
- In the moment
- Conversations
- Catch ups
- Learning
- Free food
- Fruit
- Avocados and tuna
- Air conditioning
- Fans
- The small child who shouted, "EMOTIONAL DAMAGE"
- The little girl who was me who is me who sat on the chair at the gym wrapped in blankets instead of hugs waiting. Her whole life waiting.
But the time was now.
And we hadn't seen each other in 10 years.
And the love was greater than it was then.
And he saw me.
And he was stronger than I remember.
He had gotten stronger, over time.
Like he had trained for this.
For this moment.
Was he crying? Or just breathing? Remembering to breathe.
Breathe.
And he carried me physically the way he used to emotionally.
And I was astounded.
I was bewildered.
Out of nowhere.
Came something.
Out of nothing.
Came everything.
And its like he traveled from an alternate reality to hold me one last time,
"This feeling," he said, "It's like we're 19 again -"
"No, this feeling," I said," It's like we're 29 now. Because we are. This. Is now."
And we held each other in that moment and it was forever.
Soon.
"Soon," he said, "Soon."
And I believe him.