2: What?
1: Being alone?
2: No.
That’s it?
You won’t even see me again?
No fucking goodbye?
Are you serious right now?
But I'd sure like to be done with this one.
Because not everyone can handle a goddess
Because sometimes you are the sacrifices that must be made
Because
Not everyone is ready to come into their fullness
Because
Not everyone wants all the things that they want
Because sometimes we don't know how to accept our blessings
Because
I guess
No matter how good
No matter how true
how rare
how precious
how wonderful
how generous
how kind
how loving
how caring
how sweet
how gentle
how beautiful
how undeniable
how whole
I guess
Some things just aren't meant to be
Still. I wiish. I guess I wish. It was a little less easy for you to not see me.
It's as if I already knew
And I would audibly gasp
Because I was in shock?
Because I was in fear?
Because I wanted to soak up every moment of having you near.
Because somehow I knew
Somehow deep down
That you wouldn't always, truly, be around
I thought you said true.
I thought you said, "Amy, I love you too."
The one that you sent
The one amongst many
The only one I saved on my phone
When I felt like your chest was where I belonged
When you told me the way I loved you wasn't wrong
When you called me to say goodnight
When you told me you loved me with all of your might
And you recorded it for me to hear
Over and over, in case you'd disappear
I thought it would be nice
I thought it would be something someone would be looking forward to for all of their life
I thought -
But -
I guess I was wrong.
You said it hurts the most when things end abruptly without communication
You said always
You said "As long as I'm with you, I'll take care of you."
I guess I should have focused on the first part and not the last
I guess I should have known you never expected this to last
I guess I should have known you were always looking for an exit that would make us end fast
You missed your isolation
You missed your control
Over the dark thoughts that reside in your solo soul
That you aren't enough
That you aren't capable of love
But I hope that you know
That you are wrong.