The Ancestor Play
B: Why does she think we sent her a feather?
C: ?
B looks over at Martin who is visibly uncomfortable and hiding something behind him
B: Marvin?
Marvin: . . . (bursts) I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm molting! (he reveals his feathers behind him barely still together, everyone makes vocals of disapproval overlapping using the text below, if this is a screen play, the camera zooms out and reveals the floor is covered in feathers a la a long haired dog's shedding season. Marvin tries to scoop his lost feathers back to him over the course of the rest of the scene slowly shaping them into what could be a cat that he begins to pet.)
C: C'mon, Man.
B: Marvin!
D: Jesus, Marvin.
Happy Valentine's Day <3
Love
Within you
Around you
Above you
About you
Love is everywhere you look and don't look
Love can make you okay with a hand for a hook
Love is in your heart
Love is never far apart
Love is In every book
Love is everywhere, in every nook
Love is everywhere
You don't have to care
Love is everywhere
Strategies for coping with Anxiety
Game night at Knightwatch!
I completed 500 orders on Shipt!
Thoughts
Thought you would heal my bruises and kiss me til I’m through
Thought you would be the one I’d have to ask to go
But for some reason I’m asking and you’re saying no
Trying not to wake you so you won’t make me leave
Hung up on your cuddles like a stocking on Christmas Eve
Not realizing how codependent I can be
It’s confusing
It’s frustrating
You got me elevating
Relating
Anticipating
Hating and appreciating
Feeling overwhelmed and elated
Why do you keep making me leave?
Understanding and not understanding
Trying not to be too demanding
I’m so used to blending into each other
I’m used to relationships where we can’t separate from each other
I’m Not used to these boundaries
I’m Not used to this health
I’m Not used to someone wanting what’s good for both ourselves
And my yoga teacher says it’s okay to be uncomfortable because it just means that I am growing
And when we’re holding one another, I’m practically glowing
So afraid and excited by what we might be growing
What are you thinking?
What are you drinking?
Will you tell me?
Will you fail me?
Is this a test?
What is this tension deep in my chest?
Can I count on you to give me a rest?
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And when we’re together I find peace
And when you ask for me, I say yes please
And being with you is easier than starting a car with keyless keys
But I’m not used to these boundaries
This separation of life
Like why do I have to ask you twice?
And wouldn’t it be nice -
Can I give you some advice?
Let me be your spice
No, no, -
I know your right
And I don’t have to smother you with all of my light -
And we can be together and apart every night
And it’s okay to want you and miss you
That’s right
But it’s okay to create my own delight
To be my own rainbow bright
So I’ll miss you
And I’ll kiss you
And thank you for holding me tight
And I’ll do my best not to cling onto you with all of my might
Because I’m terrified my feelings will give you a fright
So instead of this poem, I think I’ll just send you…
“Goodnight.”
Today I am grateful for:
- Shipt
- Passive income
- Returns
- Clarity
- My Zumba instructor, Cynthia A.
- I tried Aqua Zumba for the first time at my gym today and had a blast! Swimming and Zumba, my two favorite things, combined!?!!?!!!? Magical.
- Writing
- Journaling
- Poetry
- Vision Boards
- Adorable animals
- Pugs and the way they breathe and drool all over themselves
- Kitties!
- It really is okay
- It is okay
- It really is okay
- Everything really is okay
- Letting go
- Trying new things
- Trying
- Letting go
- So much oppotrunity
- My parents
- My support
- My friends
- My car
- My home
- My food
- My meal prep and planning and budgeting and groceries
- Tarot
- And rest
- And naps
- And baths
- And showers at the gym
- And soft skin
- And that post-workout flex