Messages:
- You are not alone
- We are here
- No one is alone
- You are loved
- You are supported
- You are okay
- You are held
- You are safe
- You are capable
- You are more than enough exactly as you are
- Hold steady
- Stand still
- Breathe
- Absorb
- Be here
- I'm here
Today I am grateful for:
- I am grateful for you
- I am grateful for me
- I am grateful to be alive
- I am grateful I have survived
- I am grateful for the sun
- I am grateful for the moon
- I am grateful for "Claire de lune"
- I am grateful for my best friend
- I am grateful for being able to listen
- I am grateful for being able to be there for someone
- I am grateful for being held
- I am grateful for dancing at the zoo
- I am grateful for me and for you
- I am grateful for Okapis and elephants and hippopotamuses'
- I am grateful for giraffes and zebras and ostriches and emus
- I am grateful for new friends
- I am grateful for down feather pillows and weighted blankets
- I am grateful for sleep
- I am grateful for hot tea
- I am grateful for cold fresh juicy watermelon and honeycrisp apples and red and blue and black grapes and Jordan Peele and good art and soft tissues and feathered pens and new journals and pastels
- I am grateful for catharsis for release for tears for understanding for unlocking for growing for holding on to myself
- I am grateful for fuzzy Santa hats and John Legend and John Williams and John John who gave me free whale tail cookies and Leslie Odim Jr. and Beyonce and Taylor Swift and Lizzo and Ariana Grande and Nat King Cole and Ella Fitzgerald and The Ink Spots and Louis Armstrong and the Everly Brothers and sharing everything I love with you
- And hearing you fall in love with the world
- And hearing you tell me about your world
- And seeing you
- And feeling you
- And moving forward
- And lunches
- And brunches
- And cereals with honey bunches
- And miss chickpea's bakery
- And homemade poptarts
- And blueberry jam
- And sourdough bread
- And eggs overeasy
- And mangos
- And changing leaves
- And bakeries
- And tiny cafes
- And Christmas carols
- And choirs
- And finding independence
- And severing ties and eternal bonds
- And finding love
- And creating joy
- And sitting in peace
- And ease
- And water
- And frozen lemonade
- And strength
- And I can
- Because I do
- And I will
"eat good eats
drink good drinks
sleep good sleeps"
You may applaud now
Today I learned:
Of not being good enough
Of never being enough
That if I can't be x or y, I will be left behind
That no one will want me
That I will be left to be alone eternally and no one will ever come home
That no one will ever pick up
But I'm not
And sometimes it's not healthy to expect someone to be there for you at the drop of the hat
And sometimes it's not healthy to expect someone to be on call 24/7
And sometimes it's not healthy to need someone
Or to be needed
And it's okay to be afraid of loneliness
But it's okay to be alone
And you never really are
Alone
You're only as alone as you allow yourself to be
You're only as free as you allow yourself to be
You're only as successful as you allow yourself to be
And I will survive
And this feeling will always be here
But it's up to me to be able to distinguish between my past and my present
Because people deserve to be seen as they are
Because people deserve a chance to show you who they are
Because people deserve a chance to succeed
Because I deserve love
Because I deserve success
Because I deserve unconditional love
Because I deserve a relationship and not a trauma bond
Because I deserve to know and feel the difference
Because I deserve healthy and kind and genuine and generous relationships
Because I deserve to be surrounded by positive caring people
We all do
Everyone deserves love
Everyone
So why not me?
And I'm happy
And I can
And I will
I already am