I now understand, I'm not your cup of tea,
It's not some weird meant to be,
It's simple as 1-2-3:
You don't want to see me
You don't want to date me
But you don't want to tell me
Because you don't want to leave me disappointed,
So you keep giving me hugs like a heartbreaking ointment,
You lead me on because you're not sure what else to do,
You hold my hand knowing you'll never come through,
And it's okay,
Well, it's not okay,
But I promise without you I will be okay,
Because knowing this I can let you go,
Knowing this I can search for more,
Knowing this I can rip you out of my garden like a broken root,
I can dig into myself and find the truth,
I can untangle myself from the cables that kept me on your roof,
I know, it's too hard for you to tell me the truth,
So I'll listen to myself and stop waiting for you,
You don't have to go,
You don't have to show,
You don't have to offer a yes when the real answers no,
I now understand,
I have no more demands,
I'm sorry I didn't catch on faster,
So I could avoid this whole natural disaster,
Just know I'm okay,
And let me hurt,
Let me down,
So I can let me heal,
I now realize it was never real,
You just think you're being kind by doing all the things that make me feel -
I get it,
You're nice,
You think you're saving me,
But really you're just postponing my slap from reality,
But it's not all your fault,
I've been blind too,
I've been seeing I'd never get through to you,
I've been wishing my intuition would somehow not be true,
Because its easier to pretend than let yourself fall through,
The river, the gate, the sweet hands of fate -
But I have to fall so I can get up,
I have to bleed so I can block up this cut,
I have to cry in order to heal,
I have to let myself see what is real,
I have to grieve,
I have to hurt,
And pick up my own self out of the dirt,
I have to realize you're not trying to flirt,
And I can't depend on you for all of my worth,
Because there is so much more I deserve.
So have a nice day
Don't stay and play
Let someone else take you away.