Today I am grateful for
- For all the opportunities
- For all the offerings
- For my new planner
- For the planned and the unplanned
- For the plans I let go
- For the expectations I released
- For taking it slow
- For letting go
- For taking one day at a time
- For enjoying where I am
- For creating my own joy
- For feathered pens
- For trust
- For patience
- For divine timing
- For divine guidance
- For peace
- For ease
- For release
- For calm
- For learning
- For growing
- For budgets
- For ripe bananas
- And mangos
- And watermelon
- And grilled chicken
- And Tillie's Farmhouse
- And Saint Paul
- And Minnesota
- And changing leaves
- And making it work
- And people who support me in all of my wilderness
- For possibility
- For synchronicities
- For breaks
- For peanut butter banana almond milk shakes
- For The Wedge
- For Whole Foods
- For the Children's Theatre Company
- For Penumbra
- For Mixed Blood
- For Como Zoo
- For Hidden Falls
- For Nature
- For Corazon Eterno
- For the people who continue to show up
- For the people who continue to believe in me
- For the people who continue to bring me opportunity
- For the people who add to my life
- For YouTube premium
- For Big Empress Energy
- For Tarot School
- For the smell of cocoa butter
- And lavender
- And vanilla
- And cinnamon
- And baked apples
- And strawberry rhubarb pie
- And IKEA
- And minimalism
- And a cabin by the lake
- And watching the sunset
- And watching the sunrise
Would you?
Would you tell me that you missed me?
Would you ask where I went?
Would you regret?
Would you wish?
If I came back, would you reward me with a kiss?
An Ode to Minnesota
God, I miss you
Your thousand lakes
Your old mistakes
Your bike routes
Your trails
Your people shopping with their own bags
And tiny grocery stores with their tiny parking lots
And walking on Eat Street
And Nicollet Mall
And the Orpheum
The Pantages
And Saint Paul
The fact that no one who hasn't been there understands what the f "Twin Cities" means or just how close other cities are
Your midwestern charm
Your nicities
Your overpriced baked goods and shakes and kombucha
Your vegan cafes
And pumpkin spice pancakes covered in syrup served with country potatoes
And the smell of hot tea every morning
And coffee shops that don't start with stars or end with bucks
And local art for sell on the walls
And Pizza F-ing Luce - for the love of all things good
And the library
And community events
And theatre
theatre like gold
theatre like diamonds
Everywhere
Littered everywhere
In the streets, in the parks, in an alley in the dark,
Stories bleeding to be told
Homeless people growing old
Walking on the bridge
2am
Snow falling
Glittery ice all around
The crunch of your boots on your feet
The smell of something fresh for you to eat
Farmer's markets on the Guthrie's front lawn
Fireworks in the park
S'mores after dark
Gloves and mittens
Scarves and leg warmers
Behr and Uggs and weird winter bugs
Centipedes and basements
Humidity beyond belief
Those perfect rehearsal halls covered in mirrors with green rooms and labelled coffee mugs and kitchens and showers and places for naps
And that time we went out on the rooftop to play in the snow and someone lent me their own socks off their feet so I could go
And shadow puppets
And volunteering day after day
And seeing eight shows a week
And getting drunk on theatre
And getting drunk on love
And sugar cookies shaped like a shoe or a pig or a dress or a Christmas tree
Being surrounded by silence
Your eyelashes freezing in the morning air
Your tear ducts stopping
The bus stop
The light rail
The MOA shopping
The salmon hash
The water
The earth
The wind
And the fire
The light that you bring me
The way it's you I desire
The way that I need you
The way that I bleed you
How quickly I'd drop everything
How quickly I'd go
But I can't just leave here - I need you to know
And maybe I will
That may be someday
But right now it feels like you're trying to pull me away
And I want to stay
I really do
I don't know why
I don't know how
But you should know, I'm here now
And maybe I'll visit
And maybe I'll return,
But right now I'm here and there's lots to learn
Just know that I love you
Know that that's true
And maybe I'll see you very soon
Because being with you is like being in a blue moon
I love you
I miss you,
My red balloon